We drew our own constellations..

I guess you could call it spur of the moment. Amazing. Running across the vast dark field. Wet grass beneath our feet. Bright stars above our heads. City lights within view, just beyond the edge of the cliff..it all came together in one moment for me into an inexplicable feeling of happiness. I've sat around way too much wondering what it is that is going to make me feel genuinely happy today. I set expectations and one little way or another, I'm let down by the end of the day. I've always just blamed it on expecting too much or my petty feelings. But this was it. I felt completely happy. No lingering uncertainty or doubt. This wasn't going to fade. I wasn't going to go home and sit there pondering and decide that it could have been better, chasing away any contentment I thought I had with my day. This wasn't something I could analyze or nitpick. It just was. It happened and there was no second thoughts. No questionable moments, just good memories. Looking out over the city, a million and one thoughts could have crossed my mind and got me contemplating. But nothing. My conscious was clear. Nothing in mind but how happy this made me. Despite my unfortunate camera with it's lack of ability to capture the thousands of gems in the sky. Despite my unsteady hands that failed to steadily capture the city lights as we saw them. Despite so many things that I could keep over-thinking about to spite this moment! Despite it all, in this moment, I was happy.